My name is Lillian Flameheart, i suppose you can call this a Log of some sorts
Lifes been quiet in New Dexia as they basically raised me as a child. i was always born to hate witches and the Fel
that part of me will never change, my ideals on the Horde constantly swing back and forth
So many of my family in New dexia tell me to slaughter them all.. but.. I don't want to
Life should never been taken for granite.. even if i captured the Khan i couldn't bring myself to kill them
They may think different for me.. i just want us to get along yet they don't understand that

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its so confusing having to deal with the Horde, Undead and so much, inventing and all sorts
Im a curious scientist what can i say, when i dawn these colors i don't feel regret or anything
Its Pride
I know who i am and what i want, i wish to invent and destroy the darkness on meranthe
So i write this here so in the coming years i will look back on this or my kids
in my eyes the horde needs to understand, thats why i will never slaughter them
No matter how much they beat me down or my friends, i just can't bring myself to end a life

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My commanders may hate me for that and im full aware of it
My goals currently are me, my inventions and my lover
To Study and master my Azure Flame
Khan.. you told me i don't burn hot
Well let me prove you wrong
With my flames of Azure

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For i am what i call myself as, and ever since ive been training my flames
The undead has burned me, many people have but i have absorbed those burns
They where not removed.. no i made them become scars on my body
Everytime i am burned i simply absorb and grow from it, i know who i am now

I am Lillian Flameheart
The Queen Of Azure

My flames will forever burn, where yours are Red.. mine are Blue

A Wedding.. finally the day has come
The day i dreamed of and never expected to happen
Sciential my love we will be together
Those words you promised me they are coming true

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My flames continue to burn Blue, from the day i met you we bonded so well
From just partners back against back to relaxing in a cave enjoying fruits and seeing the water
Even to that one time on an island under a Blanket, all of them.. beautiful
If i can replay them again i would

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For New Dexia i worry, i worry for my family in new dexia
Will the horde slaughter them all?
Or if i ask nicely enough will they spare them?
Can our walls hold and our people stand strong?
sometimes.. i worry so much
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Even Sciential going to this delve inside the tower, Umbra.. why..
Why do you make me worry, you shrugged off Death so easily
Maybe its me just stressing to much but sometimes i have to worry
So much is drawing near and i feel confused
The messenger of Love told me many things

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To love death and life
To play hand and hand, but sometimes i worry to much
Maybe its time i sleep and close this Log..
Yeah.. its going to be alright nobody will die or get hurt..
Its all going to okay..
Right?
Is a life without Sciential and New Dexia a life i want to live?

You know the more i write in my journal the more i get used to it
The story i write, it tells of my past and the soon to be future
This entry will be about what happened at the Enclave

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Ah the Wedding.. Alhena i thank you so much for everything
you and your followers are beautiful and wonderful people
The songs you sang and the amount of effort you put into my little wedding
Even on short notice makes me smile
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i still remember those words you told me and Sciential to say 'I have' 'I wed Thee'
Those words made me smile, when Sciential slipped a ring on my finger i couldn't hold back
My wings and horns sprouted, blue flames surrounded us as we went in for a kiss
A day to remember it was
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Im a small bit sad Taglia was not there to see it, i know she is in spirit, Sunny and all the rest of my family came
That much was happy.. i do wish Vent and Dior was there but after what happened at the battle.. ide perfer not..
Oh Vent.. why did you betray us, you are family and its not right to do this to me, i tried to save you from the horde
They told me you where unhappy.. now that you sided with them.. maybe they are true
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Alas New Dexia is gone.. i miss it every day, but times must go on, i should really get to inventing and preparing for kids in the future
Yet another promise Sciential gave to me, but we always follow the rule given to us by a lovely Draknite, no kids before Twenty!
I plan to follow it but one day Sredras i want you to hold my kids, let you watch their wings sprout or them grow giant
so badly i want to see you smile happily knowing that the Draknite and giant bloodline will grow strong, the next generation
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Well.. the suns going down and i spent the day with Sciential after the wedding, all i can jot down left in here is
Don't let your dreams be dreams
Let them burn and fuel them, kindle them and do them
I wanted to marry Sciential so i did my part, and so on and so fort, i know what i want now in life
Sciential Flameheart i love you, now and forever, that is a promise
To be with you until death due is part, that is my long term goal in my lifetime

Today is a day i wished to forget..
i watched my friends Tris and others get captured
Rescued to some degree.. but we won today

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a witch to be slaughtered in dal'thala..
i remember a fit of rage i asked for her batkin wings
she was a witch and i offered coins and ore to take them
The entire city may see me as a monster

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oh god..
what have i done.. i cut them off..
i took them for projects, but then again she was a witch
aided in New dexias destruction
..is it not payback?
to take what would of been burned on her body for better use?

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My mask has been broken.. a good bit of people know me
i fear now i may never be able to lay low
will the bats fear me and see i want their wings and body parts also?
what if the Faeborn- oh no.. sunny..
Im not a necromancer or fleshcrafter..
i hate the darker arts, you know this!
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im so sorry.. i took your batkin wings in a fit of anger

i still have them in a bag.. preserved but.. i feel sick
like guilt eating inside my stomach..
i was not scared or anything when i sliced them off
the princess stabbed you constantly brutally.. was what i did.. worse?
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Your soul is dammed to the Hel.. was that not enough that new dexia is destroyed and countless are dead to
Taglia is dead to.. am i really in the wrong.. i am unsure.. either way..
Im so tired.. im going to lay down and think this all over..
i beg my friends don't see me as a monster or fleshcrafter.. or worse..


im so sorry.. i took your wings and made them mine.. please forgive me somewhat..