[Lung]

Memory Fragment

Nº: ???

Year: 1848

Location: Near the golem nest.

Momment that make awoke: Phalanx failed attempt to save a kid from Rigs.

Level of impact: Epiphany

Listen to me recruits, and take a good look at that wall, there is written all our ideals, conducts to be followed. But let me say something, is not a easy thing to do, the closest people that can follow that without letting the impurities of the world mess with our beings, are  monks, they are devotees to their faith and teachings, but they dont live to fight like us, that means we need a stronger will to keep in that path.

This is maybe the most difficult trial in being a silver sentinel, since the begin of our history, is knowed that one unknow force dance with the strings of reality in a not understandable way, and not having any link with good, evil, but instead, a way of interact with the world, a state of mind, our code was created to train our minds and achieve that state, that goes beyond the barrier of just faith, or  fighting for what is right , since everything is subjective.

In numerous times, is felt and reported by silver sentinels, that the influence of that force, in worst battles and the darkest momments, spar sessions and meditations sessions, change them. that their superficial vision of themselves is momentarily shattered, being able to see what was impossible before by the weight of mortality, is not a thing you can explain with words but feel instead. achieve that at least once in life is the pinnacle of being a silver sentinel.

-Commander Makarov

The following text can be found in the headquarters of silver sentinels.

Live a life with these words in your heart and actions, and you may become one, with the flow that doesn't follow a direction.

* The evil will always show the worse of one, while the good the best of one, the first step is find the balance on them, in actions and feelings. lose that balance and you faded to never hear the flow.

* The ones who fight to defend, have more to win, than the ones who fight to harm,  the second step is not be the one who harms, and you may touch the flow.

*A heart pump more than just blood into a being, he control the emotions, and the same are what make us able to let the flow touch us, but being controlled by them will take off your tact from the senses. the third step is, be above the mind limitations.

*Be alive means suffer, enjoy, lose, win, each passage have his own beauty and value, not understanding this, means a cracked body, may one day feel the flow into him, but is fated to see it leak out of him. the fourth step is awake the third eye. and you will see the flow.

* The flow dont helps, dont saves, dont judge, he is attracted by the mind of the being, by understanding all ideals and the state that instigates the flow influence, the last step is hold on tight, of what is important to the being, and a miracle may happen.

Inside his house, phalanx find himself with his emergency firsy aid kid with a potion know to heal any minor wound.

"I... was close to help, but i lost, if burly was not there to intimidate the monster? what would happened"

"You know what you did wrong, you step outside the code and payed the price, and is not the first time"

"That's true... i felt... hapyness to see that kid being on ground, about being right, instead of focusing in what was important, keep them safe, i also lost my focus to my emotions, lost my stance, got nervous, was not thinking..."

"And yet you expected to feel it, i dont see why you are surprised it wont worked."

"You right, is nothing a easy thing to do, and even  if i won, was not by the ideals , but by other factors, i may have lost myself, follow that path means die... a person cant keep like that and still be... a person."

"Phalanx? creating excuses to not keep trying? do you even listened yourself right now? dont sound like you."

"Pfff, maybe i was giving up on keep on that code, after what they done to my friends, is hard not to intervine, fucking vampires, maybe what i  need is spend some time at home, to refill the essence of silver sentinels."




What the fuck have in that pipe, phalanx was talking to the walls while heals himself into his room..... anyway, He decided make a trip back to his homeland, to clean himself from the world influence and back to straight to the ideals again, he lost his path, wandering in the world without pourpuse, chasing always something with hard training but never knowing what is or why he still training that hard.