[Drive]

You know, I too once had a smile - a very wide smile, when I was growing up.

Even though I worried a lot - I was afraid I'd lose people, like I did my older brother.

I was afraid my dad would never return, but when he did, I would smile.

Smiling was half the fun, to be honest.



Though I wouldn't call my childhood a childhood.

After Sanguinius died, I was the oldest son, I was supposed to take care of all my siblings and my mother if my dad were to die in battle.

And it weighed on me so much.

I marched for Achyon, my brother and myself.

But...

Was it worth it?

I can't find a reason to smile anymore.

All my friends are dead.

I've avenged most of them.

But Lotan...?

Can I really avenge someone who died doing what he loved?

Did I really avenge any of the people I killed for?

...

These years are long past, I'm a new man now.

I keep myself numb, for my family.

I keep myself sedated with lies I tell myself.

That I don't have to fight anymore.

That I've achieved victory.

No.

Victory isn't the answer.

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D̵̠̭͈̼̳̦̮̚͝ͅ ̴̨̻̘͛̾͌̌̍̈́̚ĩ̸̻͙͑̅́̔͐̆̈́̚ ̵̨̟͚͍͕̳͉͎̞̲̟̀ͅd̶̡̧̤̻̻̳̫͕͓̳͚̽̌͐̈̐̍̈́̒̚͝ͅ ̵̡͍̯̰̮̩̦̻̰͉̩͚̞͊̃̆́͋̿̇͆̉

ỹ̵̢̛̱̺̤̻̯͇̩͖̜̗̈́͝ͅͅ ̷̖̺̎̎̉̈͑͂̉̑́̀̊͠͠͠ǫ̶̠̤̖͇̣̩̝̫̌́̍̑́̈̑́̎ ̵̛͔̮̲̹̪͚͍̠̖̉̓́͒̑͒̄̀́̈́̑̕͝ͅú̷͕̯̖̪̟͊̈́͛

m̸̡̝͍͑̂̐̈́͂͝ ̷̢̪̣̟͖̙͓̭̣̝̩͖̻̺̘̈́̀͠ì̸̻̬͇̺̤͕͈ ̶͕͇̟̰̘̟̮̥̺͓͖̣̬͚͂̈́̾̈́͌̀͗͜͝ṡ̷̡̢̛̹̪̺̣͍̥̻̳̬̣̓̆͋͌̀͐̏̄̚ ̶̩̪͉̭̥̰͍͕͔͔̹̥̱͊̎͒̓͝s̷̛̲̙̫̅̀͌̄̎̎̀̅̌̂͘͘

m̴̢̢̧̝̙͈̪̪̼̮͖̲̦̾͌̌̾̀̍͝͠ ̵̟͓̹͙̾̄̎̾͝é̴͇͇̬͖̬̈́̽̓͊͛̐͜ͅ ̸̡̥̖̙̻̰̗̺̘̟͒̀͜͜?̸̼͇͙͍̮̈́̔̃̇̓͌͌͗͗̚ ̶̨̝͔͓̦̋̇̓͠