[akemimera]

Four years since my last entry, things really have been busy. And the flames of war are on every horizon, as what I suspect will swiftly become a open war across the country stirs.

Still not all is as bad as it could be, the Fel's residences that do not exist beyond the mortal realm are all known, including their ships. A rather tedious scouting task that had been, but even they sleep long enough to pull off such. Even the towers hidden secrets were mapped. So even if I do die, that knowledge will persist.

A death that has now become a matter of certainty. It is not often one receives a declaration of death upon capture, and those are usually reserved for threats of great import. A raven with thirty years of mastering her foundations and making use of readily available equipment, and basic magics has apparently earned this cursed honor. I will not run from it, for if I leave my area of magic, there is nowhere to go. Long range magics are beyond my circuits and would sully the name of swordsman. Running away, well where would I even go? I am no shadow magi after all. But, even if I die, the fact remains I will be remembered by all, both friend and foe alike.

Although given the choice, death would wait until I am old and weary. I have been married, and while it may have been at the behest of another, the one I give my hand to is as reliable as they come, if a touch lacking in social tact. However, I cannot truly express just how shy I am when it comes to such matters, having to make use of my own magic to hide such from others. Thankfully, it is not all bad, as I can freely complain to others over tea about such trivial aspects of my life, at least taking the stress off my shoulders. I just hope that the man that will share my future at least finds me worth his time, for nothing would cut deeper then rejection.

As for the cafe, well, I have finally finished the menu, in full. Customers while few are at least repeat visits, and thanks to the efforts of a few friends and paid commissions, I am finally able to offer truly quality meals for reasonable prices. And while not quite ready to say my tea is good enough for even the Faeborne, the tea I do make at least pass the local Royalties tastes.

Oh, and I suppose I did also survive Helheim. I do not recommend it as a place to visit, given its near total state of war. Plus that near soul piercing cold, along with the beings that dwell there.. Unless you have a reason, avoid it.

Still from the small girl that had lost her home to Sanessa, to the one writing this now, it has been a very interesting life. I will just have to fight all the harder now to keep it going, as I won't have the option to not.