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Chapter 4:
New Beginnings
X/X/1740 AC
I know i said this would be my last entry before the next battle but...i have some stuff to write! Anyway, things have seemingly been put on hold for a while. I met quite the wonderful young lady today! Her name was Lenora. She seems to be Eric's retainer. Me and her had a bit of a chat and she is quite the interesting individual. She seems to be wanting to apply her Illusion magics toward more theoretical applications instead of just for combat. Such as entering one's mind for example. Quite the pretty young lady too. Maybe her and Eric can....oh! I'm just daydreaming! I have to start preparing for my wedding. Esbern and I are getting married soon before the battle starts. As grim as a situation as it is, hopefully this ceremony will bring a bit of light into our days
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Today was....absolutely wonderful! Our marriage could not have been a better event! As annoying as the dress was to wear and as tight as it was in the...um..chest area, it was quite beautiful! Eric really did outdo himself! Lenora seemed to enjoy it as well, it seems. Seeing all my friends clapping for out marriage almost brought a tear to my eye. I truly did marry such a wonderful man! I...hope me and Esbern will live together for the rest of our days going forward. After the ceremony, we had a little party in the Artisans Guild. Xyth even made us food and a wonderful cake! I was never much of a party person, but..it certainly was a wonderful time. Today seems to be a bit busy though, given the war effort and all that. I should start preparing myself and checking on my prisoners once i'm done writing here. I admit, it was quite odd that Prince Odin and Miss Aradia got married at the same time. I....could almost feel like Aradia wasn't even happy about it. I...wonder what happened to her. Well, it guess it doesnt matter at the moment. I just hope she's okay. Heh...to think i'm married to Esbern cos Salis now. Hmhm...fate can truly be a wonderful thing sometimes can't it?
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Death. Blood. Destruction. I've seen it all. Everything. Why...am i even alive right now? Why didn't that drakanite just...kill me? Why did me of all people have to live? I...failed. I failed my city. My people. I...failed everything.
I suppose it's time i give context. I was ordered to keep watch on my prisoners during the battle and help evacuate the citizens toward the nearby academy. Filia came barging in telling me to take them out and go and evacutate so...i did. I evacuated all i could from the city while Myllenoris was closing in. And...it happened. From the distance, i saw Osrona being burnt to flame. Ever sense of joy and hope i had in my heart was annihilated. I...tried to go back and save people. But i failed. The entire city would have been burst to flame as i ran there. I saw innocent people being killed. Burnt alive and slaughtered by those damn Teraphims and Drakanites. I...tried to play the hero and save everyone. But i ended up failing. I...almost got killed. Whether the gods decided to spare me because of some cruel joke or because of fate...i don't know. But i should be dead right now.
Osrona is gone. The Academy is all that is left of our people. Thousands upon thousands are dead....and...i failed them. My wounds tell the story better than i ever could. I just...don't know what to do anymore. So many lives lost...and for what?
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I did something that i completely regretted last night. I...almost killed someone. Xyth. My dear friend. My heart was so full of rage and sadness i just....snapped. So much trauma. So much bloodshed. So much...war. It took over my entire body. And i just...hurt him. Who knows what i would have done if i lost that fight. Thank Kraus i did...i...i felt like a monster. I can't ever be that person ever again. I need to remove this darkness from my heart. I have to move on...i just have too. Xyth was able to snap me out of my trance, luckily. But still...to think i was able to do such a thing...i...i need to move forward. I learned something as i fought Xyth. I learned that everyone is suffering around me. I'm not the only one. But...violence will only cause more violence. I need to keep a level head and do my best for Osrona. With plans in motion to begin the construction of a small settlement for the survivors, i'll aid in helping them. I'm a Knight after all, i need to continue helping my citizens and....i can't succumb to these desires. They're wrong. I'll use this trauma to help me move forward. I need to teach others the errors of such chaos.
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Our settlement is finally finished. We dub it Nysea. Quite a nice name, i'll admit. Hmhm...as grim as the circumstances are, i admit, i do find comfort in seeing everyone allied together. Even with Osrona gone, we all still stand in unison to pave the way torward tomorrow. Quite poetic. With everything finished, i should get to work in setting up the plans with Eric to go visit Grandmother Erika. Maybe she can give me some advice for the coming days..
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My first day on Tahiti island was quite the nice experience! It almost made me forget just how grim things are. Talking with Grandmother, Lenora, and Eric has...opened my eyes a bit. Grandmother certainly did give me and Eric sound advice...even if she was a bit scoldy. But...she offered for us to stay on the island for a few weeks to train us and help us become proper Knights. I admit, such a prospect was too exciting to pass up! So here i am, now stuck on an island with Eric, Grandfather, Grandmother, and Lenora for the time being. Being trained by grandmother herself....i certainly can't wait to spend time with my family now!
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As expected, the past few days have been quite enjoyable and...almost wonderous. Though...it has also been difficult as well. Grandmother does NOT let up when it comes to training. For an old woman, she certainly packs quite the punch! Not even i could beat her! Though, i feel as if training with her has broke my limits somewhat. The time i'm spending with my family is certainly wondrous. I wish it can be like this every day. I've been having so much fun sitting in the sun, eating mangoes, and just...spending time with my family. It made me realize what was truly important to me. And for once i...felt truly happy. I sure hope me and Esbern can retire to an island like this one day. As much as i don't like sand...the days i've been spending her have been truly wonderful.
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I'm back home now. And...of course, as soon as i get back home to Nysea. Things took a turn for the worst. They accused my brother of high treason rtight in front of me. I tried my best to attest to his innocence but...it was no use. They're keeping him prisoner now. Funny how this happens right after the best days i've had in years. It's like Esshar just..doesn't want to give me a break. Maybe i should just...move to an island and spend the rest of my days there. I worry that they're going to execute Eric but...Esbern calmed me down and said that wouldn't be the case most likely. I...sure hope not. If i lose Eric, i wouldn't know what to do with myself. I'm sure he's innocent. Fighting in the war against us!? What blasphemy! Anyway...other than that i...well, found something out today. Though i...won't jump to conclusions yet. I...need the time to think it over. But...from the looks of things. I'm...going to be a mother
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I talked to Sir Robin and Silat today. Silat being the girl who used to be my prisoner. She's grown up quite a bit! I admit, it's quite a joy to talk to her now. Same with Sir Robin, he's becoming quite the great young Cadet. Though...he somewhat worries me. I don't want him to take the path of heroism and glory like I did. It's...not an expecation he should put on his shoulders. I tried my best to give him the best advice i could regarding his Knightlyhood. And..i think i've taught him quite a bit. I admit, it's enjoyable teaching and guiding others. Maybe...i should continue to do that. Anyway, Xyth has asked me to train with him. I should probably go and do so..
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Eric is dead. My brother. My dear, dear brother...is now nothing but a corpse lying on the ground in the beach. King Alexander killed him. Murdered him right in front of my eyes. I tried my best to stop him from executing him but...it was no use. I fought my hardest and...once again. I failed. My teardrops dart the page of this entry. I...couldn't do anything. I was...powerless. I'm...the sole heir to the Salis household now. What do i even do? I have a baby on the way. Will the grief filling my heart hurt him? I..promised Esbern i'd do my best moving forward. But i can't help but feel so much anger. So much rage and darkness that lurks in my heart. I...want nothing more than to kill Alexander. I want him to feel the pain of what he did to Eric. I want him to suffer....but...i can't think these thoughts. Can i? I...i need to go to sleep. I have to tell Lenora about this tomorrow.
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I told Lenora about Eric's death. As imagined, she didn't take it well. We spent hours greiving by his gravesight. Talking to each other. Talking to him. Saying our regrets and our love for him. It makes it all the more unforunate that Lenora seemingly had feelings for him. Hehe...Alexander just had to take all of this away, didn't he? I threw my damn Sigil into the ocean. Alexander already stripped me of my Knightlyhood anyway. It doesn't matter anymore. I need to be a better person. I need to serve my own whims and protect the ones i care about. I have a baby on the way, after all, i HAVE to protect him. No matter what. Lenora's illusion magic came in handy due to the fact that she was able to project a memory onto me. A..far cry from the real thing but, it was nice. Or...it would have been, if i didn't realize that Lenora is possibly a Witch. What other magic can enter people's minds and create dreams? *sigh. Of course, things just had to get worse. It's almost funny at this point, honestly. Of course, me and Esbern talked to Sethon and the King about it. Who know's what might happen. I'm probably going to see another friend die. Burnt at the stake. Hmhm...such an...unfortunate turn of events. But i have to keep living. I just...have too. Baby Ulfric needs a mother...and Esbern needs a wife...
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Perhaps i was wrong about Lenora being a witch. I...asked her to do that magic again for me. And after speaking with her, i....realized that i was wrong. Lenora is not a witch. She's far too kind and lovely to be one. And even if she was, i...don't mind taking that secret with me to the grave. Foolish, i know, but...i care for her. I know when people are lying. She's not evil...and she never was. Only filled with grief like myself. I asked her to do that magic again for me and...i was transported through that world again. I saw Eric...i saw my memories. I....i want him back so badly. It was an interesting experience. It filled me with both grief and relaxation. To see my brother again after so long...it was beautiful. I...was told to let go. Whether it be from Sae herself who told me during my trance or Eric, i...don't know. But...i have to move on. I have to protect my baby and...all of those who i care for. It doesn't seem Lenora is going to be my retainer anymore. Part of it is...well, my fault. I guess all i can do is...hope and pray
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My child was born today. Ulfric cos Salis. He...he's beautiful. Amongst the despair and the pain that filled my heart, Ulfric is a glowing light of hope for me. He reminds me who i am. What i'm fighting for. Why....i'm living. I've only just seen his face and....i already love him. The feeling of having my baby sleep in my arms is...blissful. As if i were in the heavens themselves. He is truly a blessed child. Born at night under the starry sky of the Cosmos. I...i love him so much. I have to move on. I have to move on from Eric's death and continue to do my best. I need to become the best person i can be.
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It seems people are taking a liking to my baby. I mean...he is pretty cute! I can't tell you how many times people wanted to hold him today! Hmhm...he truly is a wonderful thing. Mm...i...figured something out today. I realized i quite enjoy teaching and guiding others. I helped a few boys out with their swordplay today and trained them. It was...quite fun, admittedly. Maybe i should do this more often instead od sulking around all day. It gives me a purpose besides just sitting at home and taking care of Ulfric all day. Something to consider...
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Seeing the King punch his brother in the streets mindlessly and hearing him say these things. It...makes me wonder, honestly. It...makes me angry. Why in the Hel does he continue to do these things? Shouldn't he be...you know, leading us? No, instead he decides to continue to hurt people. Punching his brother in the streets, choking prisoners, executing people. It's all...nonsense, really. His retainer Sethon even threatened me today. Said that i'd better watch my mouth if i didn't want to end up like Eric. The damn nerve of him. I...want to leave. I honestly do. I can't stand being in this town anymore, really. But...i guess i'll have to stay a bit longer given the situation. But...i thought up an idea. I...want to build a school! I want to teach others and help guide them toward a better future. As painful and bloody as the days are, i want to be a small light of hope. I want to use my experiences, my trauma, my growth, i want to use it all to help guide Esshar's future toward a brighter tomorrow. I'll call it...Salis Academy! Oh what fun! I...wanted to build it in Nysea but, i'll think of the location at another time. Right now, i'm going to go ahead and just...continue making money and growing funds for the project. It would be great to House Salis and help me build it up even further. Here's hoping things go well!
X/X/1743
Lloyd. He....he died today. He died during the siege. Surpisingly i...didn't find myself to be crying. I guess i'm so used to death already that even seeing a friend die like Lloyd just...doesn't effect me. I've made my peace with things. I've already made plans with Xyth to talk to Romani to aid in the formation of the Academy in Osrona. As "treasonous" as it would be to move there and do such a thing, i'm...very much considering doing so. I need to talk about it with Esbern. He's...stubborn. But moving to Osrona would be safe and...i could possibly rebuild the Salis manor as well. Most of Osrona has been refurbished and rebuilt so...so can my Manor be as well. We'll see what happens. In the meantime, the plans for this Academy are at the forefront of my mind. Besides Ulfric and Esbern, of course. Hmhm.
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After quite a...well, long back and forth. I've decided that it's best that i continue my original plans of building an Academy in Nysea. Atfter some consideration and with the meeting of Romani, i find it....difficult to keep to the idea of working with him. It's partially his own fault that Osrona was burnt to the ground and thousands of lives were lost after all. I can't support a man like that, even if he is supposed to support me. It makes me sad that i have to bail out of Xyth's plan's but...this is the safest and best choice that i can pick. I think it was foolish for me to consider going there. I've...seen the people that reside there and....some of them are absolutely awful. I don't need Osrona or the King to make my own path. In all honesty, i don't need anyone's help. As much as i hate it when Esbern scolds me he...did have a point. Being with Esbern and my son, i realized that...i can pull through this. I can forge my own path on my own and...make a brighter future. After the negotiations with Romani, i realized that...working in an Academy for him is not something that i want. Nor do i want him to take advantage of it. I'll build my own. Using my own strength. It even seems Esbern has acquired enough funds on both our ends so that we can start the construction of both the Artisan's Guild and Salis Academy. Maybe...living in this town won't be terrible after all. Let's see what happens...
I know i said this would be my last entry before the next battle but...i have some stuff to write! Anyway, things have seemingly been put on hold for a while. I met quite the wonderful young lady today! Her name was Lenora. She seems to be Eric's retainer. Me and her had a bit of a chat and she is quite the interesting individual. She seems to be wanting to apply her Illusion magics toward more theoretical applications instead of just for combat. Such as entering one's mind for example. Quite the pretty young lady too. Maybe her and Eric can....oh! I'm just daydreaming! I have to start preparing for my wedding. Esbern and I are getting married soon before the battle starts. As grim as a situation as it is, hopefully this ceremony will bring a bit of light into our days
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Today was....absolutely wonderful! Our marriage could not have been a better event! As annoying as the dress was to wear and as tight as it was in the...um..chest area, it was quite beautiful! Eric really did outdo himself! Lenora seemed to enjoy it as well, it seems. Seeing all my friends clapping for out marriage almost brought a tear to my eye. I truly did marry such a wonderful man! I...hope me and Esbern will live together for the rest of our days going forward. After the ceremony, we had a little party in the Artisans Guild. Xyth even made us food and a wonderful cake! I was never much of a party person, but..it certainly was a wonderful time. Today seems to be a bit busy though, given the war effort and all that. I should start preparing myself and checking on my prisoners once i'm done writing here. I admit, it was quite odd that Prince Odin and Miss Aradia got married at the same time. I....could almost feel like Aradia wasn't even happy about it. I...wonder what happened to her. Well, it guess it doesnt matter at the moment. I just hope she's okay. Heh...to think i'm married to Esbern cos Salis now. Hmhm...fate can truly be a wonderful thing sometimes can't it?
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Death. Blood. Destruction. I've seen it all. Everything. Why...am i even alive right now? Why didn't that drakanite just...kill me? Why did me of all people have to live? I...failed. I failed my city. My people. I...failed everything.
I suppose it's time i give context. I was ordered to keep watch on my prisoners during the battle and help evacuate the citizens toward the nearby academy. Filia came barging in telling me to take them out and go and evacutate so...i did. I evacuated all i could from the city while Myllenoris was closing in. And...it happened. From the distance, i saw Osrona being burnt to flame. Ever sense of joy and hope i had in my heart was annihilated. I...tried to go back and save people. But i failed. The entire city would have been burst to flame as i ran there. I saw innocent people being killed. Burnt alive and slaughtered by those damn Teraphims and Drakanites. I...tried to play the hero and save everyone. But i ended up failing. I...almost got killed. Whether the gods decided to spare me because of some cruel joke or because of fate...i don't know. But i should be dead right now.
Osrona is gone. The Academy is all that is left of our people. Thousands upon thousands are dead....and...i failed them. My wounds tell the story better than i ever could. I just...don't know what to do anymore. So many lives lost...and for what?
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I did something that i completely regretted last night. I...almost killed someone. Xyth. My dear friend. My heart was so full of rage and sadness i just....snapped. So much trauma. So much bloodshed. So much...war. It took over my entire body. And i just...hurt him. Who knows what i would have done if i lost that fight. Thank Kraus i did...i...i felt like a monster. I can't ever be that person ever again. I need to remove this darkness from my heart. I have to move on...i just have too. Xyth was able to snap me out of my trance, luckily. But still...to think i was able to do such a thing...i...i need to move forward. I learned something as i fought Xyth. I learned that everyone is suffering around me. I'm not the only one. But...violence will only cause more violence. I need to keep a level head and do my best for Osrona. With plans in motion to begin the construction of a small settlement for the survivors, i'll aid in helping them. I'm a Knight after all, i need to continue helping my citizens and....i can't succumb to these desires. They're wrong. I'll use this trauma to help me move forward. I need to teach others the errors of such chaos.
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Our settlement is finally finished. We dub it Nysea. Quite a nice name, i'll admit. Hmhm...as grim as the circumstances are, i admit, i do find comfort in seeing everyone allied together. Even with Osrona gone, we all still stand in unison to pave the way torward tomorrow. Quite poetic. With everything finished, i should get to work in setting up the plans with Eric to go visit Grandmother Erika. Maybe she can give me some advice for the coming days..
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My first day on Tahiti island was quite the nice experience! It almost made me forget just how grim things are. Talking with Grandmother, Lenora, and Eric has...opened my eyes a bit. Grandmother certainly did give me and Eric sound advice...even if she was a bit scoldy. But...she offered for us to stay on the island for a few weeks to train us and help us become proper Knights. I admit, such a prospect was too exciting to pass up! So here i am, now stuck on an island with Eric, Grandfather, Grandmother, and Lenora for the time being. Being trained by grandmother herself....i certainly can't wait to spend time with my family now!
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As expected, the past few days have been quite enjoyable and...almost wonderous. Though...it has also been difficult as well. Grandmother does NOT let up when it comes to training. For an old woman, she certainly packs quite the punch! Not even i could beat her! Though, i feel as if training with her has broke my limits somewhat. The time i'm spending with my family is certainly wondrous. I wish it can be like this every day. I've been having so much fun sitting in the sun, eating mangoes, and just...spending time with my family. It made me realize what was truly important to me. And for once i...felt truly happy. I sure hope me and Esbern can retire to an island like this one day. As much as i don't like sand...the days i've been spending her have been truly wonderful.
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I'm back home now. And...of course, as soon as i get back home to Nysea. Things took a turn for the worst. They accused my brother of high treason rtight in front of me. I tried my best to attest to his innocence but...it was no use. They're keeping him prisoner now. Funny how this happens right after the best days i've had in years. It's like Esshar just..doesn't want to give me a break. Maybe i should just...move to an island and spend the rest of my days there. I worry that they're going to execute Eric but...Esbern calmed me down and said that wouldn't be the case most likely. I...sure hope not. If i lose Eric, i wouldn't know what to do with myself. I'm sure he's innocent. Fighting in the war against us!? What blasphemy! Anyway...other than that i...well, found something out today. Though i...won't jump to conclusions yet. I...need the time to think it over. But...from the looks of things. I'm...going to be a mother
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I talked to Sir Robin and Silat today. Silat being the girl who used to be my prisoner. She's grown up quite a bit! I admit, it's quite a joy to talk to her now. Same with Sir Robin, he's becoming quite the great young Cadet. Though...he somewhat worries me. I don't want him to take the path of heroism and glory like I did. It's...not an expecation he should put on his shoulders. I tried my best to give him the best advice i could regarding his Knightlyhood. And..i think i've taught him quite a bit. I admit, it's enjoyable teaching and guiding others. Maybe...i should continue to do that. Anyway, Xyth has asked me to train with him. I should probably go and do so..
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Eric is dead. My brother. My dear, dear brother...is now nothing but a corpse lying on the ground in the beach. King Alexander killed him. Murdered him right in front of my eyes. I tried my best to stop him from executing him but...it was no use. I fought my hardest and...once again. I failed. My teardrops dart the page of this entry. I...couldn't do anything. I was...powerless. I'm...the sole heir to the Salis household now. What do i even do? I have a baby on the way. Will the grief filling my heart hurt him? I..promised Esbern i'd do my best moving forward. But i can't help but feel so much anger. So much rage and darkness that lurks in my heart. I...want nothing more than to kill Alexander. I want him to feel the pain of what he did to Eric. I want him to suffer....but...i can't think these thoughts. Can i? I...i need to go to sleep. I have to tell Lenora about this tomorrow.
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I told Lenora about Eric's death. As imagined, she didn't take it well. We spent hours greiving by his gravesight. Talking to each other. Talking to him. Saying our regrets and our love for him. It makes it all the more unforunate that Lenora seemingly had feelings for him. Hehe...Alexander just had to take all of this away, didn't he? I threw my damn Sigil into the ocean. Alexander already stripped me of my Knightlyhood anyway. It doesn't matter anymore. I need to be a better person. I need to serve my own whims and protect the ones i care about. I have a baby on the way, after all, i HAVE to protect him. No matter what. Lenora's illusion magic came in handy due to the fact that she was able to project a memory onto me. A..far cry from the real thing but, it was nice. Or...it would have been, if i didn't realize that Lenora is possibly a Witch. What other magic can enter people's minds and create dreams? *sigh. Of course, things just had to get worse. It's almost funny at this point, honestly. Of course, me and Esbern talked to Sethon and the King about it. Who know's what might happen. I'm probably going to see another friend die. Burnt at the stake. Hmhm...such an...unfortunate turn of events. But i have to keep living. I just...have too. Baby Ulfric needs a mother...and Esbern needs a wife...
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Perhaps i was wrong about Lenora being a witch. I...asked her to do that magic again for me. And after speaking with her, i....realized that i was wrong. Lenora is not a witch. She's far too kind and lovely to be one. And even if she was, i...don't mind taking that secret with me to the grave. Foolish, i know, but...i care for her. I know when people are lying. She's not evil...and she never was. Only filled with grief like myself. I asked her to do that magic again for me and...i was transported through that world again. I saw Eric...i saw my memories. I....i want him back so badly. It was an interesting experience. It filled me with both grief and relaxation. To see my brother again after so long...it was beautiful. I...was told to let go. Whether it be from Sae herself who told me during my trance or Eric, i...don't know. But...i have to move on. I have to protect my baby and...all of those who i care for. It doesn't seem Lenora is going to be my retainer anymore. Part of it is...well, my fault. I guess all i can do is...hope and pray
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My child was born today. Ulfric cos Salis. He...he's beautiful. Amongst the despair and the pain that filled my heart, Ulfric is a glowing light of hope for me. He reminds me who i am. What i'm fighting for. Why....i'm living. I've only just seen his face and....i already love him. The feeling of having my baby sleep in my arms is...blissful. As if i were in the heavens themselves. He is truly a blessed child. Born at night under the starry sky of the Cosmos. I...i love him so much. I have to move on. I have to move on from Eric's death and continue to do my best. I need to become the best person i can be.
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It seems people are taking a liking to my baby. I mean...he is pretty cute! I can't tell you how many times people wanted to hold him today! Hmhm...he truly is a wonderful thing. Mm...i...figured something out today. I realized i quite enjoy teaching and guiding others. I helped a few boys out with their swordplay today and trained them. It was...quite fun, admittedly. Maybe i should do this more often instead od sulking around all day. It gives me a purpose besides just sitting at home and taking care of Ulfric all day. Something to consider...
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Seeing the King punch his brother in the streets mindlessly and hearing him say these things. It...makes me wonder, honestly. It...makes me angry. Why in the Hel does he continue to do these things? Shouldn't he be...you know, leading us? No, instead he decides to continue to hurt people. Punching his brother in the streets, choking prisoners, executing people. It's all...nonsense, really. His retainer Sethon even threatened me today. Said that i'd better watch my mouth if i didn't want to end up like Eric. The damn nerve of him. I...want to leave. I honestly do. I can't stand being in this town anymore, really. But...i guess i'll have to stay a bit longer given the situation. But...i thought up an idea. I...want to build a school! I want to teach others and help guide them toward a better future. As painful and bloody as the days are, i want to be a small light of hope. I want to use my experiences, my trauma, my growth, i want to use it all to help guide Esshar's future toward a brighter tomorrow. I'll call it...Salis Academy! Oh what fun! I...wanted to build it in Nysea but, i'll think of the location at another time. Right now, i'm going to go ahead and just...continue making money and growing funds for the project. It would be great to House Salis and help me build it up even further. Here's hoping things go well!
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Lloyd. He....he died today. He died during the siege. Surpisingly i...didn't find myself to be crying. I guess i'm so used to death already that even seeing a friend die like Lloyd just...doesn't effect me. I've made my peace with things. I've already made plans with Xyth to talk to Romani to aid in the formation of the Academy in Osrona. As "treasonous" as it would be to move there and do such a thing, i'm...very much considering doing so. I need to talk about it with Esbern. He's...stubborn. But moving to Osrona would be safe and...i could possibly rebuild the Salis manor as well. Most of Osrona has been refurbished and rebuilt so...so can my Manor be as well. We'll see what happens. In the meantime, the plans for this Academy are at the forefront of my mind. Besides Ulfric and Esbern, of course. Hmhm.
X/X/1743
After quite a...well, long back and forth. I've decided that it's best that i continue my original plans of building an Academy in Nysea. Atfter some consideration and with the meeting of Romani, i find it....difficult to keep to the idea of working with him. It's partially his own fault that Osrona was burnt to the ground and thousands of lives were lost after all. I can't support a man like that, even if he is supposed to support me. It makes me sad that i have to bail out of Xyth's plan's but...this is the safest and best choice that i can pick. I think it was foolish for me to consider going there. I've...seen the people that reside there and....some of them are absolutely awful. I don't need Osrona or the King to make my own path. In all honesty, i don't need anyone's help. As much as i hate it when Esbern scolds me he...did have a point. Being with Esbern and my son, i realized that...i can pull through this. I can forge my own path on my own and...make a brighter future. After the negotiations with Romani, i realized that...working in an Academy for him is not something that i want. Nor do i want him to take advantage of it. I'll build my own. Using my own strength. It even seems Esbern has acquired enough funds on both our ends so that we can start the construction of both the Artisan's Guild and Salis Academy. Maybe...living in this town won't be terrible after all. Let's see what happens...
--To be continued!!--