[induetime]

So much time to think now...

But memories are taking their toll.

Oh well.

Fate gives, and fate takes.

The memories, good and bad, have always been so vivid for me. The most important ones are relived so frequently in my mind.
Keeping my mind busy has always kept them away. Be it through work,
or simply enjoying the company of others...
But even in those moments the past replays in the back of my mind,
constantly reminding of its presence.

She wants things to go back to how they were. She doesn't believe that I'm sorry, that I care.
It hurts, but I was prepared. I only hoped that the moment would come later...
I don't know if I'll ever get to show her how much I care.

Oh well. It is what it is.

He said that I will never have my answer.
But perhaps the answer is something that none of us comprehend.
Maybe the answer lies in preserving the memories?

Oh well. I wonder if I will get to find out.

I wasn't strong enough. I wonder if she thinks less of me now.
Maybe I deserve that, but...
As long as she accepts me back, I still have a chance to find the answer.
I wonder if he thinks less of me now.
If I don't come back, we will never have all the time in the world.
It was a promise, wasn't it?
How sad that I might not be able to keep it.

Oh well.

If only I could be simply content with the life I was given. But it was never meant to be.
Some would say I live in the past.
They would be right.
I see the past everyday.

I wonder what the next day brings.