[ByePolar]

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I failed. I thought it was possible, but despite my beliefs, there are some things I can't accomplish. One of them is protecting my siblings. On that fateful day of Stella's death, I made a promise. Not one of my siblings would fall under my eyes. I would be their Naysien, they would fly under my wings. My blade would be the tool to allow their safety. I was beginning to believe I could do it. Despite our differences, I had kept them alive - maybe not safe, but alive.

And now I'll be the one to send my sister to the afterlife.

I'm sorry, mom. I failed you. Noel always used to preach to me that reality was an opinion, one you could bend with your own will. I've done it in the past, manipulating the whims of the world through sheer might. Unfortunately, this will be the first time I've failed. When it mattered the most my body couldn't match my will. But there's no other option at this point. I'm done trying to restrain myself.

The whispers are turning into screams.

It's calling...

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Who am I to resist the urges of this blade?
It's bloodlust is insatiable. It hungers beyond belief.
I'm just a tool to enact bloodshed in it's name.
And I can't fight it any longer.

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I'm about to give in.
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Rise.
Bathe.
Eat.
Stretch.
Pray.
Cry.
Slaughter.
Cleave.
Rend.
Avenge.
Eat.
Bathe.
Pray.
Sleep.
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Repeat.

I'm done.