[Rho]

Chapter Two.

Growth

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'Let's not act like momma didn't challenge him.

Or like any of them have anything to do with that.'

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There is a stark difference between me and others of my home.  It's becoming more clear with each passing day, but sometimes being different can be a learning experience.  When I saw my ma' out on the battle field fighting that demon, all I could feel was my rage.  I watched him put a hole through her chest, and all I could think was; 'I don't want to lose another ma'. Truth be told it was terrifying, but what was even more terrifying? Was that I was willing to hurt not only the person responsible, but anyone who might be close to him.  The blindness of my rage in the end, would have brought me nothing but dishonor to myself.

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I don't want to be blinded by my rage.

I want to understand it - see it more clearly.

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My brother Armani has been blind for longer than I can remember, but he is able to see so clearly. If he'd not jumped in between me and Guo and spoke sense into me, who knows what my anger would have needlessly sparked.  I don't want to be a Martyr. The children of the demon king have a right to their freedom of choice, and all I can do from where I stand is hope they do not follow in the footsteps of their father.  I've learned this, and from now on I choose to see things differently. To inspect the things that anger me, differently.

What Armani said to me opened my eyes.

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Which is why it confuses me, as to why he thinks the Vorso children do not deserve the same respect as an Okabe.

Why would he rectify my anger against Guo, but sympathize with Hale and his act out against the entire Vorso family?

Are the two situations really that different?

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Hypocrite.

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Who calls someone racist over calling a wild domice - 'desert mice'?

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I don't understand how some girls lack of understanding of the Rhoynish is that a big deal to begin with.

-but to blame her entire family for her ignorance?

Pah.

Teach her instead of causing needless, pointless, ongoing rival-ship.

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Nonetheless, I have learned a lot about Novus that I don't think any of my people know. I've asked questions to understand if I should hate them, because to be honest - it would be so much easier if I did hate them - but I just don't see the appeal...You know what else I am learning? That knowledge is just as powerful as brute strength, and I plan to have the best of both worlds.

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I want to be the viper amongst the lions.

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Signed,