[Milly]

The Beyond.

I will be judged when I die.
Most people believe this, but I know this is a fact and it has been drilled into me ever since I was little. When people die they go to the realm they are most suited for, and most believe only monsters and demons and witches go to Hel - but so will I. For it is already pre-ordained I will go to Hel, and join Athelios' side, where I will be judged and He will determine if I'm brought back to begin life anew, or to be given the chance to stay.

On one hand, both seem promising but on the other hand both seem terrifying.

I have never been to Hel, at least I don't think so. Will it be comforting like returning to a warm house when winter is upon us and snow drifts inhibit one's steps? Or will it be entirely foreign to me? Will it change me, if I remain there? Or will I be found unworthy to remain and sent back to Meranthe to begin things again - that is something equally as terrifying as remaining in a realm that I can only dream of.

I have tried to live my life to the fullest, and I have tried to do things that have been right and just even if it's put me at odds with quite a few people. But sometimes within the stillness of the night and there are no other sounds I wonder if it's enough. Have I done enough to satisfy a Primordial that sought out the best within souls, that sought out to redeem those society saw as irredeemable? Am I enough?

I have pushed, and pushed and pushed for my beliefs and what I believe is right, and even as I've been knocked down repeatedly I've merely gotten back up and continued. But is that - will that - be enough for Him?