08-24-2022, 11:30 AM
I saw death, I saw destruction, I felt pain.
I don't know what to do anymore.
The pain for my people, I feel, deep within.
The pain I inflict on other, over some self-made crusade..
There's so much blood on my handss, and I don't think I can take it anymore...
I can't.
It's been so long since you were here, Lestia and I miss you, so, so much...
But there's nothing I can do but drink and reminsce about our time together.
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It hurts me so..
I tried to avenge you.
I thought them all monsters...
But they're more human than I ever was, since I lost you.
I don't know what to do..
All I feel is pain.
All I do is inflict pain.
I can't live like this.
I wasn't living.
I never did, not since I lost you.
I pushed everyone away, since you left, even your own brother.
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I can't fight anymore.
I can't live like this.
I can't force myself to be in pain for you.
That's all I did.
No more.
I will live a life worth living.
I can't be a creature of hate.
I'm so sorry.
I'm done.