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Laying within her Grandmother's bed Serenity - after having come to the land to deliver items belonging to her father,  to her mother and crying her heart out upon her Grandmother's shoulders, 

the twin sister of the Mephans endured a dream.

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It was vivid. She had usually experienced a nightmare—at least since that day—but tonight was different. 
She recalled memories of her childhood, the days spent with her brother, father, and mother. 

She learned how to be a warrior.
She learned how to think.
She learned how to love and care for her family...

But they had never taught her how to quit.
The scene changes to that faithful day, her argument with her father over not feeling loved. 
The declaration that the protection of the gate was an emotional gesture made by her father.

But as soon as that memory began, it ended.
They stood before the demonic Sage of Rot, and within seconds they were all defeated. Vena, her father, and Uncle. 
The three of them were fated to die - but death's embrace ultimately only came for one of the three.
Edward Keene sacrificed himself to ensure her life - and she would remain.

But for some reason, she did not feel as if this was a nightmare. The dream fades to black for some time. 
Then, a feeling - something within Mavethkar was calling out to her.
A vision of the rubble, whatever it had been, whatever the feeling ultimately was,
Something was telling her to return.

She awoke, resolved to return to her home and find what was calling her. Something had to be there. Or maybe it was just another dream.

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"I am the inheritor of a dream.

I will carry the stain, the shame of my father, and Edward Keene's deaths. 

And I will make this right.

I am a failure, but I will not fail this time - I will carry on the dream.

I don't care what it takes.

I don't care if I have to do it alone.

I refuse to give up on your dream.

It is our dream now. All of us.

And if am the only one to keep fighting for it?

It is now my dream, and mine alone to live for."

Mavethkar will rise again.
It will be a symbol of our people, our heritage, our ideals and;
an eternal memento of your dream.

I will not fail you .. this time.

 

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What's the right thing to do?

When the pressure's on you, and you need to be perfect.

I'm trying to figure it out, but

I'm still hurting...

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I hate it, but I'm human, and I'm still learning to be nice to other humans.

I'm learning the hard way, but I need to know what it feels like to do the wrong thing.

To make the right choice at the right time...

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I guess I just gotta show them I'm worth the stress.

I guess I just gotta keep working and get it right.

I guess I just gotta keep my head down and do what I'm told.

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I'm pushing my luck, sixteen and some bad guys even know my name, huh? 

Doesn't seem good, but I'm gonna cook them up if they ride up on me.

I hope Desdemona is okay!
My New Year's resolution for next year is to stop being reckless.
I hope my enemies respect this!

[ApathyArtistry]

Transformation Through Suffering and Struggle: Each sister reflects different kinds of struggles - existential, emotional, and physical. Followers are taught that suffering is part of growth and transformation, be it through the intellectual exploration of Salem, the emotional depth of Bronach, or the physical battles of Morana.

I grew up in a tower, I was taught in castle, and I was trained by a Valkyrie.
Compared to other kids, I was more than blessed.
Then, we lost it all and had less, lost my dad in the process.

There's transformation - strength in the struggle, strength in this suffering,
But someone told me I look pretty when I don't sulk.
So I can't start now. I've gotta give it all I can give, and then more than that.

I've been working, struggling since eleven but I've only started suffering recently.
Damn I guess I know what it means now.
But I'd be lying if I said his company didn't change things.

I might've given up without it.

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Didn't even get to keep the uniform.
Didn't keep my innocence, didn't keep my dignity,
It took everything, and he took even more.

I can't trust anyone except my family.
Too dangerous, these magi are too treacherous.
Fuck this world, honestly.

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[ApathyArtistry]

Sitting silently within the gigantic walls, and barren dunes provided by her new home, the newly crowned Amamiya finds herself within an internal monologue.

For who had observed her, it would seem as if she had just - forgot to care about the social interaction she was a part of, but much deeper - was the rampant pessimism her aspect of Nihilism provided within her head. After all, many other people had things to say about her, and how she lived, she was still a human, and she would think about them extensively.

"But I mean... 
They are kind of right, though."

"I had assumed we didn't resort to zealotry. "
"I was always told to pursue my whims as long as it respected the sisters."

"I am spreading the philosophy - and seeking strength through my belief in them."

"No, but like, really. By definition, you are actually a heretic. That, and you're hiding an addiction."

"Your perspective on death is generally at odds with theirs, and because your religion is entirely familial,
beyond those who you have inducted, by definition, by sheer value of numbers, you are a heretic, Vena."
"But much more than that, you're a sect leader... Who specifically focuses on ritualistic endeavors."
"There was no possible way this was going to be perceived positively."

 "Oh nooooo. You figured out my super secret master plan, Whatever. Shall I do."

"But you see, its actually more than that. You know what you're after..You know exactly what you're doing."
"And that's why you don't say it, because you know how it would be perceived."
"Even if they don't, because they haven't realized what you have been doing."
"You can't lie to me."

"My goals are genuine."

"My primary focus is empowerment, even at my expense."

"Vena, I said you can't lie to me. "
"You know exactly what you're aiming for. You know what you're truly aiming for."
"There's a reason you only speak of it with those who you trust."

"In fact ...  Your mother likely knows what you are actually up to."

"We're all against you, why would the world want you to succeed, knowing what you truly are?
"Maybe.. You should give into your greed! Let it consume you entirely!"
"Use the world as your paint brush, and create whatever meaning you decide

- even ones that don't make sense, because it all means nothing in the end!"

"Mad about some titles, they're just some words to justify and align structure. "

"People can be such a pain in the ass, as if a title has any meaning without the value placed upon it." 

"An entirely arbitrary and metaphysical concept, but they're not 'over' emotions enough to notice that."

"Haha...The walls are closing in, yeah."
"It'd be a good time to have those Valkyries..."
"But I just need a little more time.." 
"I'm very useful... People just don't see it yet."

"My greed.. Mh.. I should really stop letting my pessimism run riot like this, in my head."
"It's had dire consequences before.."

"And that's about to cost me ten years of my life."

"All will be revealed in time..."
"Just a little... More time..."

{And there was silence within her mind, for now}