[That Clown]

In a warm summer, the last egg of a sweet duck mother hatched. But it was not yellow like the others, no the duckling was ugly and had white feathers and long talons.

The ugly duckling could not swim like his siblings, he was not like them. Every time he tried to be like them he either hurt himself or others.

But then the mother duck introduced him to a wandering albatross, with the albatross he felt seen and as if he belonged for once. The albatross taught him to do things that his siblings couldn't like flying, and for once he felt like he was special just not an ugly duckling.

The albatross would show him the skies, and tell him stories about how hawks used their talons. He had heard about the hawks before, and how one had visited their nest in the past then stopped coming.

But the ugly ducking didn't care anymore since had the albatross, for once he felt like he had a place in the world. But then the albatross was fucking killed and eaten. And they all lived happily ever after. I hate it, hate it. die die die.

[That Clown]

I wanted to be him so bad, I was so desperate to become THAT MAN that I ended up losing everything that made me who I was in the process. Without my legs I crawled to where he was, without my arms I climbed a mountain just with my mouth to see his shadow.

But why did I even do all that? I wanted him to look at me, even if the world screamed at me to stop. The voices kept screaming words that I could not understand as they tried to drag me in the darkness with them, but I continued because I could not rest until he looked at me.

                                                                            GIVE UP                                                             


FAUX KNIGHT                                          FRAUD                    Little Traitor                               DIE                        FAKER

But I refuse to give up, even if I'm weak, even if I'm small I have to continue running or I won't forgive myself. I do not understand why, but I need to continue even if everything hurts it can only end when I get there.

I can't let it end up like this...

I do not know why...

But someone is calling me, someone still believes in me! 

                                                                           GET UP!
                                                              



MY KNIGHT!                        MOMMY'S HOPE!                                 MY BRAVE!                           COMRADE!               MY SON!

Yes, one more time. Get up, one more time. You are his knight, you made a promise to honor his code. You made a promise to him to be good. But more than that, you can't die yet...for her.