[Rambling]

"I no longer trust you. So you know as much as I require you to." 

You gave me nothing at all even when you did.

Nothing has changed from that.

"What a shame you didn't know who I was before.

We could have been friends then. Or. Perhaps we were." 

We never were. You hold up an imaginary world.

You even think we knew each other since childhood.

"I'm not discrediting the Caius faith."

You already know that's not my faith. In the same conversation.

I would ask why you conveniently forget, but I know why.

"Paloma I do not want you to leave, but I want you to understand our ways."

I don't believe you for a minute.

But you know what? I attempted. And before I could even try...

"Why, Paloma. It sounds like I've just described your issues with Atheleon, doesn't it? 

So I beg the question of why you suddenly oppose it. 

Is it because it affects you? You aren't a self-serving person like them, right?" 

Not at all. No one cared so long as my goals aligned.

Yet now you revile me for not being one of you.

"I fixed her for you, by the way. In only a handful of months, too. You're welcome."

Do not assume I have forgotten your opposition.

You opposed me when I tried for years.

"And failed. So don't speak like you know how to succeed."

You are a vulture reaping the benefit after all my efforts.

And you decry me as useless.

2211 AC

I take the withered husk of my oath to Atheleon

and I let it die.

A festering, fetid limb that needed to be severed.

He manipulated me.

He claimed I could be uplifted by Aphrosi ways.

But he just wanted my silence and compliance.

And the nuns loathe me. For I am not an Athelite.

I set them on their path from a distance and they claim all effort is theirs.

They wouldn't even KNOW without me. Without us.

And I hope it goes well for them

But I won't cry if doesn't.