[Lightborne]

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Are you watching over me?

 
Are you proud of the person I've become?

 
Am I living up to the standards you may have set for me?

These questions linger in my thoughts, bothering me with every passing moment.

 
I find myself wondering, questioning the choices I've made.

 
Is the path I've chosen leading towards a fulfilling conclusion?

 
Does that even exist?
 

The complexity of my current situation weighs heavily on my mind.

 
I never anticipated finding myself in this position.

 
The burden of responsibility, the sense of duty, and the sacrifices I've made, all of it has reshaped and overrun the simplicity of my earlier life.

 
at first, my concerns revolved around a small circle of friends.

 
I enjoyed the easy going times where my friends kept smiles on their faces and we were just a bunch of kids with a big dream.

 
War was a distant thought, and my blade had little reason to be used.

 
I even claimed that I hated fighting.

Yet, here I am, now.

The weight of my responsibilities and burdens seems to grow with each passing day, and if I'm honest, it's becoming overwhelming.

 
There are moments when I doubt my ability to handle it all alone.

 
I have people willing to help- but I shouldn't rely on them. I'm the only one that should be dealing with these things.

 
I recognize that I fall short, no matter how much I strive to grow.

 
It's a sad realization,

 
 I can never be enough on my own.

I find myself at the point where I acknowledge the need for help.

 
But I refuse to accept it.

 

I crave those carefree moments, where laughter and jokes flow among my friends, not held back by the weight of constant worry.

 

Yet, there are things that demand attention, obligations that must be fulfilled.

Mom, will you be mad? Are you disappointed?

 

I promised to not do things out of obligation, but  I'm too far gone.

 

I've done so many things that you wouldn't approve of.

 

Do you still love me?

Hemera, are you proud? Am I doing this right?

I'm trying my very best to do what I can.

You were the one who helped me the most, you provided me with the path that I needed.

I want to do for others what you did for me.

Your heart is big, and your warmth is welcoming.

Will I ever become like you?

So many questions, so little answers.

So many concerns, eating away at my mind.

I don't know what to do.

I'm lost.

 
I can't make up my mind.

I need help.