I'am All of Me

[Obama]

Can you be?

It's something I often ask myself. 

 Can I? Will I? I ask myself every morning when I awake and every time I close my eyes to sleep. At this point? I wonder if everything I'm doing is worth it. Rather... is it weak minded of me to do as my dad did? I mean, Can YOU blame me? My reason was not the same. It was far different, It was beneficial for me. I no longer wanted to be a boy, I wanted to find myself in a place where I could mold myself into a man. So people like Enarr's other blessed whom walks around as he pleases can truly understand that if anybody deserves that CROWN? It's me! Can I? Will I? I ask myself often. Somebody like you, Raithe. Despite our meeting being one of violence you showed me something beyond my initial understanding. Renfae my father, You did it as well, But I'm not entirely sure how and when. 

So I ask myself... Can i? Will I? 
Truth be told...

I don't know. Even as I try to become wise like my forefather, I find myself still harboring feelings which make me act CRUEL and furthermore uncompromising. Even as I fill my head with the words of the wisdom of those who serve he who's domain is the citadel. I ask myself if I take a plunge into word my Forefather may not exactly agree with- Will I be losing the potential I hold in my very veins? 
Can you?
Will You?

I often ask myself this question. 
I ask and ask and ask.
And I know I WILL. Because I'm no horned freak, I'm the closest to his image unlike those conceived by the same crown bearer.  
I'm just like him. Will they? Can they?
Not before I for I often ask myself...
Can I?


I will♕
Eventually!!!