02-06-2023, 08:54 PM
It has been a few years since you've let me free, to explore and learn of what there is to see.
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I have felt dread | I have felt elation
I've felt as if though my chest was ready to burst beneath the pressure of making the wrong choice.
Time seems like a simple concept now, in which the eyes of those now bearing down upon me judge, and judge, and judge.
What more is there to say than I know I thrive upon the thought of failure, and hunger to achieve love.
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I've felt love | I've harnessed fear
When told to explore, was this what you meant? To twist, turn, and writhe within this free realm to indulge.
I couldn't reject it, all the things that make me feel as if though I am human. The things that makes some demons.
They are all chaotic existences, small puzzles to be solved while I figure out what I desire myself.
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I am empty | I am wanting
I am told that gratification is best met by those that simply learn to accept what it is they're without.
Of course I am weak, I am pathetic, I am low... But I dance and sing, I smile, and play to a tune just like them.
I am their fascination, I am their detest, I am...
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Everything, some would hope they're not. I am the acceptance of imperfection.
I have not learned yet, but I continue to explore.
I know they are looking.
I know...
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They are my friends.